I'm tired... mentally. So many things on my mind. The youth in ChiangMai, the youth in church, my cell group, my personal life. Then there are things that keep repeating over and over again. Things that keep coming up. Things that I don't wish to think about anymore. But they keep coming back.

Decisions to make. I wish that I could just be alone for now. I don't want to be bothered for awhile. I don't want to decide anything. It makes me sick to the stomach. I just realised that I'm not the type who can fool around. There's a bar preventing me from doing that. So I'm going to stop trying.

Prayer seminar was good. Like a revision of things that I've learnt. I'm glad that quite a lot of people came for the first session. Glad to see them taking notes. But I hope that they actually do utilize the knowledge they've gained. Hope to learn more tomorrow afternoon.

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Excuse me, could you put those tears on hold?
I seem to have misplaced your heart
Are we stopping to get directions?
Or are you too proud to ask?
Bitter winter galleries display these works of art
Could you think of a better way?
One that doesn't require effort?
Turn around please, easy does it...

The lights dance playfully
shimmering through, pressed on the liquid glass
straining to keep them in
and the head tilts back
The flutter of the eyelids
ever so slightly, you don't want to start the deluge
You don't want them to see those drops of weakness
From a whine to a wail, a scream to a roar

Still you keep it in
Low, like you don't feel
Finally they weigh down
Goodbye, Goodnight
Ignore my plight
Remain unknown
Unheard
Unhurt
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